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April 17th, 2011

11:03 pm: move out notice

Here's to tell you that,
I may not be updating here anymore.

I have moved to a dot-com.

see ya guys there!


March 17th, 2011

02:29 pm: 福气

日本9级地震,让从不爱看报纸,游览CNN网站的我,在这两天对新闻非常关注


(50mm on FG20, with 200 mitsubishi film)

在樱花的季节,发生此事,很讽刺
本应灿烂的绽放,却变成黯淡的悲剧

那一幕幕像电影般的画面,出现在新闻频道
那些失去亲人的,心酸的诉说着的,难得重逢的,坚强活着的
都让我看得流泪了

唉~


“人没事,就是福气”



不懂可以怎样帮助,除了默默祈祷,希望一切可以平息
がんばって



March 9th, 2011

06:02 pm: man made happiness

Remember going to the beach and making sand castles seems to be the best thing ever?!









(50mm on FG20, with 200 mitsubishi film)

Remember when happiness is a given fact that it's so effortless?

that, only happen when you're young.

Trust me, when you are old (or old enough),
happiness is, actually very effortful

To many, being with people we love, means joy
But unfortunately, as we grow older, we grow apart as well.
Therefore, in order to gather, it requires A LOT of effort
arranging venues, agree with a time... endless planning.

While, others might finds contentment in material things..
no doubt, retail therapy does work.
however, buying means spending...
hence, more effort is needed to earn more, in order to own more.

again, it's effortful.

Then when you starts to get bored and think about living more interesting...
perhaps the annual celebrations?
or, a trip somewhere?

everything that makes you happy, 
you have to work hard to earn it.



when happiness is man-made.
Not so happy anymore isn't it?



March 2nd, 2011

02:30 am: same yet different





(50mm on FG20, with mitsubishi 200 )

From a simple glance, they are the same. But if you look closer, every each of it is different.
Every petals, arrangement, sizes, distinct from one and another.
It's only the matter of looking deeper, into the details and embracing the slight diversity to call them all unique at it's own way.

It's the same with our mundane routine.
Everyday seems the same. The same route to work, the same lunch outings, the same gym, the same people...
Yet, try to embrace the slight differences and to see everyday as an eventful day ever!

*am trying hard to do so.





February 1st, 2011

04:07 pm: analog vs digital
 

(handsome old man done by 50mm on FG20, with ilford 100)


it's hard to choose sides between digital and analog photography
to be frank, my heart would definitely go for the antique cameras and film
but still, i can't resist the conveniences of digital (plus the magic photoshop could do)

then i thought,
pictures are still pictures regardless what camera, or either if it's analog or digital
as long as it serve the purpose of capturing
and of course, to create great outcome...

again, people put labels on everything, even photography.
sometimes i wonder why, 
maybe we had too much options, that we lost the ability to judge.
hence, by putting on labels to each and every thing, we thought it could justify better.
but who created those labels anyway?
and why are we to follow them?






January 27th, 2011

01:31 am: 似实似虚
 








曾经走过的回忆,像被淋湿的照片
蒙蒙。模糊。
似实似虚

明明发生过,却那么不扎实
像场梦

也许思念的不是时间地点,也不是人物对象
而是当时的那份感觉,

那感觉可以如何保存?
我想没人懂吧












January 20th, 2011

03:33 am: moments


(50mm on FG20, with Kodak 100 expired)


"If you had to own one super power, what would it be?" 

I'd say.

To stop time.

to freeze that special moment that belongs to me and you
and the rest of it just doesn't matter

i wish to stop time, and to live in the moment. eternally.


too bad, time never stops.
and things never stop changing too...



January 15th, 2011

02:55 am: it's not a world of two




 
(50mm on FG20, with Kodak EBX x-process)


being together, isn't just a you and me world.

we lived in a society closely bonded to each other. especially when there's facebook
your whole life is on it and there's nothing you could conceal.

i have got myself attached lately and eventually leads to the revealing it on facebook
to my humble surprise, the response was totally overwhelmed
all the congratulations and "likes"

frankly speaking, not thrilled at all, not furious or sad either...
i just didn't really like the spot light on me
having everyone to tell me that they're so happy for me..

i felt weird

what is it to congrats about? ( not like i'm getting married.. -__- )
srsly? i even start thinking, why do people congrats couples that got married.
what is it to congrats about?

isn't it, non of your business? (no offense)
i mean, two people being in love, it's their own world to be shared among themselves
and, congratulation is an act of joy or acknowledgment towards people that achieve something in life.
like say, graduation or business achievements...
but love? 
is that an achievement?
to me, it's not.
because It's not something you can work hard to accomplish. neither can you control.
therefore, i don't feel the need to be celebrated with acknowledgement

but the world will always fill you up with all sorts of unnecessary point of view
until, we forgotten what does it genuinely means

still, i'd like to think that it's a you-and-me world
regardless 
and someday, i really hope to escape from people. and live a life alone, or with my plus one




January 4th, 2011

11:26 pm:

happy new year people.


(last pic done on 2010, 50mm on FG20, with expired Kodak 100)


this whole crossing through 2010 towards 2011 has been crazy
not as in it's happening.
more like, there's so much to deal with,
i didn't have time to sit down, and think about new year resolution or what not.

on the last few days of 2010,
there's just work, and work and work.

on the very first day of dear 2011
i drove my mom's car out at night.
and, i crashed it.

on the 2nd day of 2011,
seek comfort on the fact that i still have my own car,
to borrow my mom at least.
but... but.... but..........
my car has to broke down at the same time.

can anything be worst.
both cars were sent to workshop at the same time
and freaking cost me a bomb.


Happy New Year INDEED



December 29th, 2010

12:57 am: for now, it's rome








(mixture of film made pictures of rom)

i remember saying this last year,

the best thing that happen in 2009, is to join studiorom
and the worst thing that happen in 2009, is to leave studiorom


and now, 2010 has come to an end as well...
strangely, although it's only been a year,
it feels like 10 years has gone by.

maybe because studiorom doesn't exist anymore,
company split, name changed. pretty much like it has disappeared... 
yes, the architecture is still there, some people remain as well.
but to me, it's gone.

gone because i moved on.
gone because i no longer live in it.

but even if it's gone.
still, i will always miss those days
doing things not according to plan.
exploring stuff that i have never thought i would.

i just felt sorry that...
life only travels in one direction, which is...
forward.



*toast to the long gone moments.




December 28th, 2010

09:01 pm: contradiction
 



(digital made, d80, 50mm, with my nikon FG20)


evening friends~
haven't been updating this journal.
i apologize for that...
(bet nobody keeps track on it, anyway)

*clear throats

hah, well not writing here, doesn't mean not having thoughts.
the urge to express whatever flown through my mind is always there,
but somehow, i lost the courage to share it to the world.
hence, i did it the old school way, by writing, diaries.
(*nods, those ink on paper kind.)

i always want to be truthful to myself,
but somehow, by knowing whatever you do "online" will be judged,
cause the overthinking before action made.
hence, it's no longer genuine.

then, why not cut this page off, and do it all old-school-style?

now, this is the contradicting part.

i wanted my voice to be reached.
yet, i'm afraid to be judged.

oh my.
am i such an oxymoron or what?
*slaps

see, that's what i'm saying,
you'll probably be judging me right now.
aint?


hahaha.
i wonder am i alone, or do you felt the contradiction as well?







December 6th, 2010

05:20 pm: time

Time is running out.
everyday, bits by bits....


(ilford 100 on Nikon FG20 with 35mm)


there's so much to be done, to be explore,
yet, i don't have enough time.
and there's never enough.

I made some stupid calculation lately. (lol)
Say, If i'm going to die at the age of 73,
which means, there's only 50 more years left.
(that is if i'm lucky enough to turn 73)

50 years

ONLY!

and if i could only...
read 7 books, watch 90 movies and visit 1 country in a year...
That means, before my time ends,
i can only cover maximum, 350books, 4500 movies and 50 countries!


But, according to google,
there's 129,864,880 books in the whole wide world.
And based on answer.com,
there's 1,711,668 movies in the whole wide world.
Plus the fact that there's 197 countries in the whole wide world.

I CAN NEVER FINISH THEM ALL.

and that depresses me.


sigh

"There's no way you can have it all"

is a lesson hidden in time.
and when you can't have it all,
maybe it's time to treasure what's in your hand,
rather than to chase for the endless...













02:46 pm: 择偶条件
 

(digital made, d80 with 50mm, vanessa & joe)

择偶条件

什么是你的择偶条件啊?

那我的择偶条件又是什么呢?
往往,比较年轻时,总是外表要很帅,像金城武最好不过
现在老了,外表反而变不重要了
取代的是一些更莫名其妙的条件
比如说,他一定要懂拍照。要有很好的审美观
再来,一定要喜欢到处走走,热爱旅行
有抱负和梦想最重要
还有,要感性!(看戏,听歌会哭的那种,哈哈哈)

说着说着....
那个我要找的人,其实,就是我自己
不对,应该说是理想的自己吧

在你聊起‘择偶条件’时,
会不会也一样,说着说着...
其实,那个人就是 ‘理想的自己’ 呢?


大家都在寻找,世界另一个自己吗?






November 18th, 2010

11:46 pm: the beaten path
 

Growing old, doesn't mean growing smart.
and to grown-ups, the mind has no space to evolve anymore
They will be who they are now, or who they were before
and this self will remain.

it's easy to shape a child, but never a grown up

It's a beaten path.

the pattern of how things happen to a person, will keep it's routine
the habits that one cultivated will stay, a very long time

change, is the least you expect in grown ups.









(ilford 100 on Nikon FG20 with 35mm)


To a grown up I've become now,
It's easy to see how i keep my habits, and the way i deal with issues
how sub-consciously i decide to be this person

this person that ain't positive, that slowly likes to be alone
and compose pictures with an identical style
just like this lonely long path.

It's still a long way, and It's still a lonely path.
but one thing that differ is that,
This path is no longer full of sorrow.
because i enjoy being alone now

I can't amend what had happen to my pass as it's marked history
But present are made of history,
future are made of present.

therefore, to the present-me now,
promise to make a stronger future-me.





November 11th, 2010

06:27 pm: endurance




yesterday during yoga class....

teacher said...
"Today, we're going to focus on endurance"

then he continues

"By holding on a posture for more than a minute,
we will then realized, which part of muscle sore the most,
and that means, we put too much weight on it.
So, you must always pull back those weight,
and transfer them to another part,
to achieve a balance."



make hell lot of sense, right?



October 29th, 2010

05:09 pm: to my chem
 

it's really funny how things never seems to change even after all these years.

what i meant is,
art, film and music that somehow made a connection with me.
those connection. to my surprise... they're pretty lasting.

you can call me a 'fan' if you like to.
but we all needed something to believe in, don't we?

and my religion, to be honest, is merely,
art, film and music.

you must be thinking,

why this sudden gratitude?

haha, well no doubt..
my chemical romance, will be launching their new album...
DANGER DAYS: THE TRUE LIVES OF THE FABULOUS KILLJOYS



and i'm extremely thrilled,
i checked on their website everyday for updates, youtube as well (lol)
waiting for 22nd November to come.. (the album releasing date)
so much anticipation.
i thought after years, i'll grow up, and not be like a teenager fan.
but nahhhhh. i then realized, it has nothing to do with growing up.
i will always be amazed by them, at any age.

Regardless, this new album is nothing like the black parade.
and people starts comparing the differences
but i personally think that, it's still very-my-chemical-romance
The spirit in them. never change, and it just keeps getting better!
In one of the interviews,
Gerard says that they were wide aware of the contrast as well.
but, things are constantly changing, and it didn't just happen to the band, but in general as well.
back then, everything just seems dark and depressing...
over dependent on technology, digital stuff...
now, colours are slowly painting back everything,
people start seeking for alternative rather than pure digital 
(aint that happen in most of the major ads? more and more hand-craft stuff, no?)

he says their mission is to pull the sun closer to earth.
(i like this quote very much, lol)
i sure as hell know they did,
cause i already felt the warmth from the only 3 songs released so far...




Gerard is still the most inspiring person (srsly)
He, being married, being a dad now...
still carries so much charm and... MORE CHARM even.
it's just amazing to see someone like him, 
having so much positive energy to spread around...
(at least, i'm all charged up every time i listen to them)

No matter he's blonde, the patient,
or now, red-headed, the party poison.
He's just a legend.

Still playing NA NA NA NA,
The only hope for me is you, and
SING.
non stop.... : D

can't freaking wait for their whole album..
don't even mention about their tour!!!

YES, 
I AM A TOTAL CRAZY FAN!
at this age of 23.
bite me!!!
I FEEL YOUNG AGAIN!
>_<












October 27th, 2010

04:00 pm: 最♥香港
來講講香港吧
一直都很想表達我對香港的那份情感
可惜都找不到時間。
由于我堅持要寫中文,又加上只能在公司打中文。
所以
拖到現在


好。廢話完了

開始吧


我,雖然立志要周遊列國, 可惜去過最遠的,也就只有這要程搭4小時飛幾便能到的香港。
沒關係,就讓香港暫時排在第一吧. 以後,再去遠些的地方!


(最壯觀的香港夜景!panoramic stiched from 5 photos)


在短短的幾天,我一部份的心留在香港了
這個地方,我喜歡


以前就有聽說香港人很現實,不太友善。
可是,應該是幸運吧,我們遇到的香港人都很nice
就不是那種笑容很多,禮貌很好,很端莊的友善
反而是,很直接,很普通卻很真實的友善

就像一天在灣仔要去見九龍(過海),遇到的一位的士先生
他說不熟九龍區,不載!可是,卻不收錢的載我們到過海的士站
unbelievable!!路途還蠻遠一下的,到了那的士站,剛好就在地鐵站對面
結果,下車後,等到那位司幾先生走了,我們為了省錢,就搭了地鐵過海(好像有點浪費他的心意)
可是重點是!他人太好了吧。馬來西亞不可能會有這種事lor!

如果說他們現實,對!他們的確是
因為,如果你在香港並不富有,其實很辛苦
房子小小,人口多多,加上香港政府又不像星加坡政府,
會提供廉價公寓。(根據一位香港朋友所說)
所以大家都為了兩餐,難免会現實點
可是就因為大家周遭一樣,明白大家生活困難
所以香港人特别團結(看香港娛樂圈就懂啦)

好像我很懂香港醬(lol)
之少,這是我在短短幾天看到的香港ler


剛好遇到農曆七月,auntie們就隨便在街邊燒香拜拜,超文化lor


辛苦的阿嬸在賣魚




可愛的茶餐廳uncle




很香港的香港


我住塘尾道,太子


金鱼街最有趣


妹妹,姐姐带你去看金鱼啊!!


香港巴士也很好拍


我要与香港警察约会。(哈哈哈哈)


猪肉荣在卖猪肉


看就知道她有几喜欢香港lo


她就有一副lost脸


这个行人隧道有potential拍鬼片。


本人比較喜歡九龍
比較有道地文化,旧旧的,卻感覺每一個角落都有一個故事
香港島就比較modern
也不錯啦


太想念香港了啦

一定要重返這個地方
最好有機會在秋天去!!

我還特留著在香港拍的film. 不捨得develop
想讓它在幾個月後,還持續surprise自己 (lol)
所以,以上的都是digital照片

剛剛把一卷黑白film.拿去develop了
哇。超期待的
wish me luck
到時再聊香港吧!



October 19th, 2010

01:19 am: bitches.


UNHAPPY!
and, i'm not being emo!
rather, i'm being constantly ANGRY.

so much rage...
so much discontent...
so many bitches around me...

i'm turning into a cactus!!
with sharp needles pointing out.

"one step closer, you're a dead man!"
grrrrrrrr


seriously...
i hate the cactus-liked me..
that i'm constantly off balance, always pissed off...
but. how to not be one when there's so many bitches around me!

i tried, the make-peace option.
for instance,
if people are bitchy to you, let them be.
take the high road
ignore...


but NO. i can't!

it's a dog eat dog world out there.
you play timid, you play miss nice...
everyone will eat you up alive!

not that i strive for victory.
i never wanna climb the corporate ladder.
i just really can't understand why!!!
so many people out there, so insecure,
they have to step on people to prove that they are good enough.
making people feel bad, actually helps them feel superior.

and hell no, i  will never be the reason for them to feel good.
FUCK OFF LAH. BITCHES!


GR!
why can't people treat people sincere?
i know you'll say. "welcome to the world"
yah, i know it's true.
if i don't change. if i don't protect myself.
i will be a door mat.

i just need to find a balance...
being cactus in front of bitches, by not loosing myself.

tough as hell.







September 22nd, 2010

11:08 am: m . u . l . t . i . p . l . y
 
multiply

multiply

multiply

multiply

multiply







vision from a kaleidoscope
gladly it's able to be captured by camera

5ringgit for such an antique
that could easily made my day


multiply things i like,
may i see the world through a kaleidoscope

September 7th, 2010

12:52 am:
age has taken it's toll on me.
not exactly destructive...
yet, not exactly amusing too...

i just felt different.

i have been secretly isolating myself from people.
i enjoy being alone in fact.
but the truth is, i'm practicing.

and practice makes perfect.

this is what aged has turned me into.

i'm not proud,
i'm not ashamed either.

and soon i'll turn 23,
and i'll be perfectly fine.
alone. : D






August 5th, 2010

02:15 am: the raw shark text.


i like how incidental things occur,
like picking up a random book from Amcorp mall the other day.
a whole big pile of old books, selling for rm3 each
so many of them, some old, some odd, some bored,
but one had caught my eye, hence i picked it up, flip through it,
and because i'm in a hurry, in just less then a minute,
i decided i had to buy it now, or regret later.

in fact, it's just rm3 anyway.






The Raw Shark Text,
by Steven Hall
It's his debut, in fact.

an indeed remarkable experience
story about a quest of preserving a loved one eternally
no matter what it takes, even by losing himself.


Here's the introduction from the back cover.

Eric Sanderson wakes up in a place he doesn't recognise,
unable to remember who he is. All he has left are journal entries
recalling Clio, a perfect love now gone.
So begins a thrilling adveture that will send Eric and his cynical cat Ian
on a search for the Ludovician, the force that is threatening his life,
and Dr. Trey Fidorus, the only man who knows it's secret.


very much action pack and required plenty of imagination.
In fact, I find it somewhat hard to picture many scenes.

Emotional part of the story,
It's kind of sad to see Eric dealing with the lost of Clio,
it's like his life ends together. 
But Steven Hall didn't make it all weepy and sorrow.
Rather, it's more like doing whatever one could, even to challenge the impossible fact.
In order to be together with someone that is no longer alive.

A lot of facts doesn't really make sense, as if you don't buy fiction.
But things like the conceptual fish, un-space, ditchaphones,
that forms the spine of the story,
are indeed original.
never heard of them, not even being able to search for reference on google (lol)
for that, i think it deserve compliments.

It would definitely be great to reproduce it as a film,
and guess what, screenwriter for Slumdog Millionaire,
has just completed The Raw Shark Text's screen play.
HOW AWESOME RIGHT! soon a major film will be produced. : D

yay



SPOILER

There's a part where Eric describes the good old days of him and Clio,
here's what she said.

"I'm going to have a smiley face tattooed on the underneath of my big toe"
Eric asked why and Clio said,
"So when i'm dead and they put my toe tag on me it'll look funny in the morgue."

CUTE right?
i mean, not exactly cute, but it's...
also cute in a way.
this, i find it indeed original.
lol

Steven Hall also talked about death and how one person is gone,
but still remains in some way.

some idea like this, are relatively interesting.

How big part of life is about the hows and whys of setting up machinery,
It's a building system, devices, motors. Winding up the clockwork of direct
billings, configuring newspapers delivery, and anniversary and photographs
and credit cards repayments, and anecdotes. Starting their engines, setting
them in motion and sending them chugging off into the future to do their thing at
regular or irregular intervals. When a person dies or leaves or ends, they leave
an afterimage; Their outline in the device they've set up around them. The
image fades into the winding down of springs, the slow running out fuel as the
machines of life lived in certain ways in certain places and form certain angles 
are shut down or seize up or blink off one by one. It takes time. Sometimes, you
come across the dusty lights or electrical hum of someone eles's machine, maybe
a long time after you ever expected to, still running, lonely in the dark. Still doing
it's thing for the person who started it up long, long after they've gone.

A man lives so many different lengths of time

A man is so many different lengths of time.

Change. Collapse. Reinvention.

oh, and another quote i like.

we only see starlight because all the stars are bleeding.

slightly sad, and anti-romance statement for the ever delusional starlight.



okay, that's about it.
take time to read it, i would recommend.



August 4th, 2010

08:09 pm: the all the best and the last events. (so far)
 
















pictures done by d80, 50mm
made at seremban funfair



specially dedicated to belle.
the women that venture into singapore for her dreams and obligation.
we never really confront the valediction
because singapore seems too near for the tears of goodbye.
but still, it's no longer like we can just meet whenever we want to.
T___T
and now it's just me and ning. (for the plbb gang)
maybe soon, it'll be just me that remain.

sigh




anyway, i wish her all the luck of the world.
may she be blessed with great opportunities


: D








August 3rd, 2010

03:33 pm: halo curls

now then i realized
having a nice-hair-do.
can actually ease monday blues.

hahaha, okay, at least, in my own interpretation.

tadaaa. curly shoulder length!



that, is my lovely, lengchai hairstylist. JUNO.
they used to claim that we both look alike,

but after years of evolution.

he, transformed too much (in a good way)
that i couldn't hardly catch up.

so, i no longer see us as friends-look-alike.
sigh. : (

anyway, i'm pretty glad with the outcome of the curls.
just hope that it could maintain as it is, even after weeks.



July 22nd, 2010

01:26 am: amelie
 

just finish watching Amelie,
for the second time.
*i'll tell you why i watched it twice later.


what a feel-good movie.

thanks to meimei for sharing this,
It has claim to be her all time favourite film.

which had also hit my  top 5 too.

good stuff to share.











*enough screencaps.
lol, watch it for yourself.
It's up on youtube.


a france-made film, to be specific.
If you were to question me, what's so good about the film.
I couldn't really tell.

then i'm confuse.
why would i like it so much...
it took me a while
and i started to realized,

it's the details.

what actually amuse you,
is all the small little details.
so small, so out of sight
that people would usually over pass them.
however, director, Jean-Pierre Juenet
take count on every of it.
and present it so well in the film


Seriously.
we always seek for BIGGER pleasure.
more money, more cloths, more of everything.
but we end up neglect the simplest form of joy.
that could come from anywhere,
and that could happen everyday.


watch it, and you'll get what i
mean.



btw, side note, why would i watch it twice is because....
lol. for the first time, i insert the dvd into the player... and hit button play..
Jean-Pierre Juenet starts to talk.
yes, commentating from the very beginning.
and so, i thought, wow, maybe it's done on purpose, that's how unique it could be.
then, he starts explaining every scene, why he picked this actor, why he choose this place,
what he loves about this scene, what's gonna happen next. bla bla bla...
using his france-english accent. wahlah...
i thought it would be for the first few scene. end up. it drags and drags, until i finish the whole film.

T_T
i can't even decide what to concentrate.
him commentating, or the scenes, or the subtitles (cause it's in france)
quite painful to watch ehhh.

then only i realized.
it's a special edition, where you could actually choose to have the normal mode.
without him, commentating. -___-

yah, and therefore, i watched it twice.
but, it's worth watching the third time too. and i actually appreciate the commentating part.
can really understand the film, and director's point of view.

just, i did it in a wrong sequence.
haha




July 13th, 2010

04:47 pm: i want to see myself not in malaysia after 2010.




I was told by many that i am never contended.
never happy with things i have in life

truth is.
i knew i'm blessed with great friends and family
and i really appreciate all of them

but, i believe everyone are meant to serve a different purpose in life
and the reason for my constant malcontent
are in fact, i can see what i want in life
but i'm always looking at it from a distance.

and i hate it

i'm not a career person, neither a family person.
my ultimate goal, in life,
is to travel around.
(and if you were to check on my most frequent viewed website,
it could only result information regarding visa, working or studying oversea)


i'm getting old
and it's really bothering me badly
i am the one who said i wanna get out there, and be adventurous
but in reality, i am the one that roots here,
and attending one after another farewell of my friends.
when is my turn to be farewell?

i'm sick of myself,
all the talking, all the research, all the readings.
but none the action.

this is not a life i seek for
this is not the abby tai i want to be.

i don't want see my life pass me by
and all i have done is just sitting around, and dream on.

although, i know i might sound naive now.
but dreams all sounded naive, not until one take action, to make it real.

and i want it to be real.
give me all the determination, all the courage i need.

and i shall be off.
to anywhere in the map.

*cross fingers


 



12:23 am: the kins


i did an unofficial photoshot for michelle.
(yah, i wanna name it unofficial, just so because i am not exactly satisfied with the outcome

T_T)


It's for her upcoming online boutique.
and it's up now, do visit.
THE KINS.

anyhow, have a look at a few that, somehow get through my quality control,
and merely got a C... T__T








    






the other 2 models are sue ann, and michelle's cousin, estrella.
all cloths and styling are done by mich.

T__T
okay, shouldn't be blaming on the weather, but instead my skill...
STILL... the weather is really, hating me that day.
it rains in the morning. then during evening, there's no direct sunlight at all.
the sky is covered by clouds.

and don't get me wrong, the dissatisfied is not due to the models.
they are great.
just, i'm not really in the mood, due to the weather.

HAIH.

enough said lah.
no skill, have to brush up and improve bah...




July 9th, 2010

06:55 pm: remember me.

I watched
remember me the other day.
yah, mainly because of
Robert Pattinson 
(of course, of course)

and i thought it would be a sick-romance kinda movie, (that i loved)
then, turns out, not so much about romance.
but i seize the meaning of our daily life through the movie.

"Ghandi said that whatever you do in life, will be insignificant,
But it's very important that you do it, because no one else will"
-quoted from the movie-

Indeed.
and for my interpretation.
even how insignificant of things we do everyday.
we're ought to jot them down, 
for instance, blog about it.
or write it down in your journal or diary.
draw them down
record the voices

it might seems insignificant now.
but it's a sign, a prove of us,
that we are once here!

nobody can live forever
but things we do. things we create.
they can live forever




05:33 pm:
in case you wonder, i am no longer deadly missing studiorom. (it's a lie)
and i finally moved on. (yah, like i have a choice?)

so, here i present. 
my life in mccann kl!

which is nothing more then an imac.
and sitting in front of the imac.

of course, apart from imac,
there's still human beings around me,

first of all, please meet ABY, the art director.
which shares the same name with me. (abby, aby LOL)



so we're basically, the B1 B2 in the office


okay, then comes, the writer, song song (middle), and the senior designer (left), mei mei.



song song is no longer here liao. T___T
but she has an active blog. where she writes good stuff. : D

another that had left as well, Mr. Hot Zahir



yes, he is touching his crotch, faking his orgasm. 
>_>

here, we have queen of the sexy, val.





*you shall know what's sexy after seeing her, lol
she used to be my sister's college mate, and now she's my colleague. small world kan.


the chinese writer, shan shan (middle) and again, the senior designer, mei mei (right)



which is now, my constant pantry-gang.
(ever since my sad DIET plan kick starts)
me and shan shan prepare salad for lunch, and
poor mei mei have to dapao her vegetarian rice cause she will starve if she only eats veg.


so, this is the few of more than 60 people walking around the office.
i only manage to catch a few.
talk to a few, and hang out with a few.

can't have a whole 60 of friends anyway, right?





July 1st, 2010

01:11 am:
i don't believe time heals.
time never does the healing part.
time is a veil
it only hide your wounds.
make believe that it's long gone

but whatever happened
that leaves a mark
will never fade

i believe memories are ghost
they never stops haunting
often appeared at night
with them around,
there's never place for healing

yet.
i take pictures to embrace memories
so ironic isn't it?




June 23rd, 2010

12:24 pm:  










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that's exactly how i felt now.






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